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ROSSELLA ROSSI
Rossella is a world-class yoga instructor based in Miami, Florida whose teachers’ training workshops interface around the world. Rossella is also a busy nutritionist and health coach, and has been a long-time collaborator and co-creator with the Source Legacy Foundation and our school.
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ROMANTIC RELATIONSHIPS:
A Spiritual Practice of Forgiveness and Unconditional Love
by Rossella Rossi
As one wily teacher puts it, “intimate relationships are good practice; they teach us to open our hearts in hell.”
For most of us on serious spiritual paths, it is easier to find balance, peace, and purity as light beings when we are single. The single life may from time-to-time be a little lonely, perhaps prone to boredom occasionally, but let’s admit it: it is somehow more peaceful. Everything seems under control, we feel proud for keeping ourselves on “the path,” and our spiritual practice is usually solid and grounded. But deep inside we feel that it is too easy and that, really, we are not growing that much. Something is missing.
We ask God, our Guides, our Guardian Angels, and the Universe to bring us this opportunity for growth. Sometimes we are aware of this request at the conscious level, and sometimes we are aware of it only at the soul level. But eventually our prayers are answered: we meet that special person and fall in love. If we are fortunate, our newly beloved falls in love with us, too, and we experience the magic. When there is a spiritual connection in our love relationships we reach a state of bliss and we even feel as though we can transcend this reality together. That first stage of love is deep and unconditional, and we open our hearts and souls to each other and to God. It is heaven.
Of course it takes two people who are at the same level of awareness to experience this blissful state as truly spiritual; it doesn’t happen to everybody and with anybody. And, unfortunately, it doesn’t last for all the couples who experience it. Only a few are mature enough and aware enough to be able to handle and nourish this highly spiritual union. After the first blissful stage, however, “reality” usually kicks in.
As the challenges of everyday life demand our attention, we forget to keep our relationship at that high level. We think just because we reached that depth in our spiritual connection with each other that we will have it at all time. And we forget that our relationship needs to be watered and nurtured and cared for like the beautiful house plants that bring vibrancy and life to our homes. We forget that discipline, attention, time and energy are required to keep the relationship at such an elevated level, just like in any other spiritual practice.
We discover that our beloved is human just like us, and we get overwhelmed by everyday practicality, losing awareness of the deep sacred connection of the united souls. We stop treating our beloved as if he/she were the embodiment of the Divine (which is the truth of all souls), and then we stop looking at them and talking to them from a place of respectful Godliness. We grow disappointed that things no longer feel perfect, that our beloved is not perfect, that the relationship is not perfect – and everything changes.
Instead of keeping our eyes open and our hearts in tune with the soul connection, we get trapped in the external. We are puzzled that our life is no longer in order and that we lost the apparent sense of peace we had before the relationship when we felt strong and “on path.” Now we feel sad, angry, disappointed, deluded, and absolutely not serene! What we have forgotten is that we asked for growth and we got the chance to make it happen through love.
A romantic relationship provides an opportunity for one of the highest spiritual practices. It can be cleansing. It brings out all the emotional garbage we carry with us, all the “bad” about ourselves, all our weaknesses, our fears, and even our spiritual doubts. It is amazing how much ugly stuff we end up showing to the other person when the going gets rough. And so our beloved ends up paying the bill for this extended and expensive therapy session. In return, however, we pay the bill for our beloved, too.
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Did we ask for this challenge? Did he/she ask for it? Well, yes, we did. On a soul level we surely did. Believe it or not, our beloved is serving us a great favor, and vice versa. Maybe we are helping each other to pay old Karma, or to learn important soul lessons, or to face our own Self, or (most of all) to find peace, love and serenity in the midst of “romantic heaven and hell.” But life in the middle of this cleansing therapy isn’t easy, and we find ourselves closing our hearts, resenting our beloved for the difficulty of the journey.
We try to run away, but we can’t really stop the process so we try to run yet farther away. We try to hide, we get angry, and we hurt each other. But the souls still long for each other, and the separation is impossible. The inner battle starts: our mind wants to separate from our beloved, pretending that the fault for the “failure” of the relationship rests on the other person’s shoulders. We convince ourselves that we are incompatible, that we’ll find a more suitable partner, and a better relationship. The truth, however, is that we will still be human, any new person we bring in will still be human, and we will still have another human relationship. We will always face challenges and we will always go through some cleansing no matter who we are with. Should we stay, then? Even after we have been hurt, betrayed, or even somehow abused? What does our heart say? And our soul?
If we did once feel and experience that deep soul connection with our partner, most likely it is our time to perfect our practice of forgiveness and unconditional love. Can we still look at our beloved and see God’s beauty in him/her, despite some of the uglier truths that might have emerged? Can we still see the beautiful soul in his/her eyes? Are we capable of letting go of the past as a tool for growth and embracing the present as an opportunity to take the relationship to another level? Can we commit to this rewarding spiritual practice?
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If our beloved is in tune with us and ready to invest heart and soul, this is when the true spiritual relationship can begin. If our beloved is not at this point, we can’t force his/her process. It would be disastrous to do so. We need then to realize that we have two options: (1) we can wait patiently with no expectations; or (2) we can leave, thanking our beloved for the miracle of the journey itself – and then process the events and all the emotions involved individually. Both options are perfectly valid. But whatever the choice, the important thing is to keep our hearts open, replacing anger, pain, disappointment and any other negative feelings with love. With or without our beloved, we need the practice of forgiveness and unconditional love.
It is our time to learn how to keep ourselves serene and peaceful and not lose sight of what really matters. It is our time to practice what we have learned in our spiritual studies and be able to see the big picture (as my husband would say), getting ourselves out of the “little drama.”
What have we learned? There is no one to blame and no faults to find. What can we do now? And how? Well, the good news is that we don’t have to do it alone. We are helped at all times. We have tools. And God is always with us. Likewise, our Angels are always around, our Team is on-duty 24/7, Spiritual Guides are always holding our hands, and we can call upon any form and shape of Divine help. These Divine beings look so forward to helping us in our practice of unconditional love and in the process of cleansing fear, pain, resentment, and anger. In fact, it fulfills their purpose.
If the soul union is strong and both partners are willing to invest in this spiritual practice, we are blessed by the opportunity of taking the relationship to yet greater heights and redefining its form, even after everything has fallen apart by conventional standards. If both parties cannot commit to this practice, then it becomes even more important to not leave the relationship saddled with new fear, resentment, anger, or disappointment. Even if we decide to terminate the relationship in its current form, we must take this time as an opportunity to clear our hearts of negative feelings and practice forgiveness, unconditional love, and LETTING GO! It’s not easy, we all know that. But practice makes perfect!
It is like in yoga: after many years of asana practice, one morning we step onto our mat and, magically, our legs go behind our head with ease. This is because we kept practicing faithfully every day. In the same way, one day we’ll wake up and we won’t know anything but unconditional, infinite Divine Love.
© 2006 by Rossella Rossi
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MARILYN K. PYLE
Marilyn is a collaborator and co-creator with Source Legacy and a facilitator within Source Legacy's Divinity Programs. She is also a Licensed Practical Nurse, a Nationally Certified Licensed Therapeutic Massage Therapist and Bodyworker, and a birth doula soon to be nationally certified with DONA International. Marilyn is based in Orlando, Florida. The following is from Marilyn's newsletter, "The Body Report."
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DISEASE AND THE 4 Rs
Rest, Release, Renewal and Regeneration
NEW BEGINNINGS
No cell in the body lasts longer than 7 years. In fact, some do not even last that long. Our body is constantly renewing and regenerating. Physiologic chemists say our bodies do not contain a blood cell that is more than 14 days old and that we rebuild a new heart every 30 days. We grow several fingernails in a year, and dermal skin cells take only 2 years to be completely replaced. What that means is that we have a new beginning every minute of every day within our bodies.
THE BODY WISDOM
Every acute dis-ease is a healing crisis as the body struggles to free itself from toxins and regain Balance. Unlike the other animals in the Earth’s kingdom who will rest, refrain from eating, and even purge the body of toxins, the human animal can be observed plowing forward popping aspirin, antibiotics, and any other antidote to keep on schedule or keep on working.
How often do we ignore the body’s signals to rest, drink, or limit our food intake? These initial physical symptoms are the body’s way of saying, “I need a little time to catch up and regain balance. I don’t need you to DO anything but take a rest.” When we ignore these initial signals and keep on going, eventually the body will slam you down onto the bed or couch and remind you, “Ahem…I told you we need a little rest.”
TOXEMIA – AN OVER ACCUMULATION OF TOXINS
Toxemia is produced by anything that enervates the body. Let’s look at the definition of the word ENERVATE: “To deprive of nerve, force or strength,” with the root of the word being “energy.” Put together, we can see that “enervate” simply means “energy deprivation.” Enervation inhibits elimination, thus causing an accumulation of body waste. Body waste is simply the final result of the metabolic processes in our bodies, and the metabolic process is constantly at work trying to purify every level of our being – at the cellular level, at the systemic level, at the atomic level, at the RNA/DNA level. Toxins accumulate when we cannot properly and efficiently release the waste, and the accumulation of toxic waste creates dis-ease. The over-accumulation of toxins – or toxemia – always sets the stage for degenerative dis-ease processes in the body. Dis-ease then becomes the body’s remedial effort to release, purify, and repair.
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BODY BALANCE
We survive because we are continuously healing. Organic and functional changes that daily aid the body in maintaining and/or restoring harmony and integrity are often labeled as disease. Simply put, the varied symptom-complexes of disease are the body’s way of eliminating toxins and bringing repair and regeneration to the living system, though sometimes in seemingly destructive ways. Every organism embodies the elements of restoration and regeneration and we call upon this ability on a daily basis, on a minute-by-minute basis, whether we realize it or not. Homeostasis (or dynamic equilibrium) is the process of the body finding balance through metabolism. Our monthly visitors may remember that we recently discussed “catabolism” (the process of shutting down the system, or “aging”) and “anabolism” (the self-renewing and self-regenerating state endemic to youth). When elimination is inhibited, body waste (by-products of catabolism) accumulate in the body. The waste is toxic and when it builds to a point of crisis, dis-ease develops to help eliminate the toxins. Toxemia (or metabolic poisoning) manifests in many different ways. A cold, bronchitis, gastritis, or fever serves to reduce the toxic load to the toleration point and usually subsides as spontaneously and as automatically as it arose. Crisis or dis-ease ebbs and flows as energy rises and falls in keeping with the varying habits and circumstances in the life of the individual. If an individual’s mode of living is such that he/she expends energy more rapidly than can be restored, you may depend that the end result will be enervation. Enervation inhibits excretion (elimination) so that normal metabolic waste is not efficiently eliminated. The retention and accumulation of this waste causes a toxic state and this toxic state will always set the stage for symptom-complexes or dis-ease states.
NEW MEANING TO R & R
Supplying the body with conditions of health, fresh air, sunshine, exercise, pure water, cleanliness, a positive state of Being, a wholesome and balanced diet, and rest can allow us to again experience with wonder our own miraculous and natural healing powers. Physically manifest symptoms of dis-ease are the result of the body trying to restore systemic Balance and Harmony under critical conditions where the de-energized systems have become too toxic or too overtaxed to function properly, to eliminate properly, or to regenerate properly.
Nothing hastens the elimination of toxemia and the restoration of energy more efficiently than rest – emotional rest, mental and psychological rest and, perhaps most importantly, physical rest. When we rest we are able to re-energize, recuperate, restore, renew, regenerate. So, in its Infinite Wisdom, when our body falters a bit and asks for a break, wouldn’t it make sense for us to listen? A little Rest and Relaxation, a little Renewal and Regeneration, might be all the body is asking for. After a little quality R&R, don’t we often hear people say ” I feel like a new person!”? Well, you know what? At the literal cellular level, we really are.
© Copyright 2003, Marilyn K. Pyle
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NANCY PROTTENGEIER
Nancy is a collaborator and co-creator with Source Legacy and is a facilitator within Source Legacy's Divinity Programs. She is also an Ayurvedic Practitioner who teaches at The Ayurvedic Institute in Albuquerque, New Mexico.
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REFLECTIONS ON A LIFE:
Looking for the Right Combination
by Nancy Prottengeier
We all reflect on our lives. At some point relationships, illness, career changes, death, birth, and quiet moments pole vault us into a sense of inner inquiry. We look for the key that will unlock our true happiness. At each of these crossroads we are given the opportunity to examine our perceptions. Often there is the illusion that what we seek is found in some external parameter. I have been given many opportunities for such reflection.
When I was six months old I was rolled into an operating room for the first of many surgeries to come. By the time I was a bright-eyed, enthusiastic and playful four year old, I had been through a series of operations. Each one yielded hope for my parents that I would be well. It was the surgery when I was four that I vividly remember. There was an orderly who rolled me into the elevator on my way to the operating room. I recall his eyes and his smile. To a little girl on a gurney he seemed larger than life. I wish I could thank him. To this day I am touched by his calm and sweet demeanor with me.
My recollections include the excruciating pain in such a small body and those who did their very best to help me. That surgery was the last of my visits to the hospital for many years. The pain returned when I was 11 years old. My body remembered things of which I had no conscious awareness. My physical experience had no context. The pain made no sense. As I grew into adolescence and, then, young adulthood, the medical doctors provided medications in an attempt to ease my discomfort. By now I was re-arranging life events, trips, holiday plans, school, work and social obligations as best I could to work around the symptoms my body would manifest every few weeks. Doctors kept switching my pharmaceuticals as they failed to have any effect after a short time. Some medications made me nauseous. Some accumulated in my system and ultimately caused hallucinations and convulsions. Some worked for a time, giving me hope that I had finally found the “right combination,” only to lose their pain-reducing effect and send me deeper into fear and frustration. I wondered if I would be like this my whole life. What had I done to deserve such punishment? My symptoms affected my relationships, my career, and my quality of life.
When I was in my thirties, my cousin was diagnosed with breast cancer. She was about my age. With great diligence she explored complimentary medical alternatives along with traditional care. After many months of brutal allopathic treatment and post-op recovery she went into remission. Her cancer returned after nearly five years of hope and being symptom-free. I was stunned. It was then that I began to explore what my career in mental health could offer her. I believed to the core of my soul she would regain her health. She died shortly after her cancer returned. She was such a young woman and it had a profound impact on me. I believed she could have lived if we had just found the “right combination” in time.
While looking for alternatives to help my cousin I came across the science of Ayurveda. When she died so did my exploration of alternative healing options for the physiology. I focused instead on pursuing my academic study in psychology, looking for the answers to life’s questions there. Ironically, years later, a dance therapist at the hospital where I worked suggested I look into Ayurveda for my own physical pain. I passed it off as kind, sympathetic advice. So many people were so eager to help but I was tired of chasing hope. I had succumbed, mostly, to the fact I was to bear the burden of what my body suffered. What I didn’t know was that Ayurveda, and ultimately Source Legacy, had just come into my life.
Years later I moved across the country, which meant a new set of doctors who wanted to initiate their own set of tests, surgeries and procedures. I had been through it all numerous times before and couldn’t bear the thought of being tested, injected and cut open yet again. As I said to one surgeon: “I live in this body, and each time it is cut open and explored I am left with another scar, memory and trauma.”
Remembering my cousin’s determination to live I plunged into my own dedicated search for answers. Ayurveda kept surfacing. This time I paid attention. I found a chiropractor who had Ayurvedic training and my treatment began. My symptoms became more severe before they improved but I truly believed I could be well. Ayurveda was my new lifeline. Not surprisingly, this very quiet and unassuming practitioner referred me to those with greater authority in Ayurveda, as it was revealed that my symptoms were more complex than initially assessed. There were obstacles with this referral: these authorities came to this country from India, getting an appointment was terribly complex and expensive and there was no opportunity for follow-up treatment. I pursued it anyway. This was the reservoir of my renewed hope. Soon I realized Ayurveda was no longer going to simply be a treatment modality in my life, it was a greater part of my life path – and I studied every venue available to me. Eventually I went to two schools of Ayurveda and incorporated the teachings and practices in my everyday life, as well as my chosen career of psychology. My health improved as did my optimism. Ayurveda seemed to be the missing link I had always known existed and searched for so many years to find.
NOTE: Ayurveda is an art and a science that addresses the whole person; the mind (which Ayurveda believes to lie in the heart), the physiology, and the spirit. It is an inclusive philosophy which adheres to balance and reverence of life, all life, including living in harmony and respect with nature.
My studies ignited a passion for healing that had been a consistent thread throughout my life but was frayed by so many years of pain and suffering. I was quite sure I was on my way to perfect health. I had found the “right combination” in my life and the world was going to be my playground. I was yet to discover the source of a deeper awakening.
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Within my own healing process came the opportunity to resolve deeply repressed energies that had been buried for lifetimes. My physical body was finally strong enough to handle the reverberation of such an endeavor. It was not by conscious choice that I experienced this releasing. I did not wake up one day and decide “okay, today I am going to face my deepest fears.” Instead, it was a gradual escalation of emotions that began to surface and release. With this purging of stuck energies came another set of symptoms. They were completely foreign to me and dramatic in their manifestation. I knew how to manage the symptoms familiar to this body but this experience was intensely different. Nothing I had used in the past to find relief worked. I did my best and found a balance that seemed to manage life without too much strain... until it didn’t anymore.
Sometimes it is one simple incident in life that brings the whole thing tumbling down. In hindsight, I wonder how such a simple and now seemingly insignificant event could have brought me to my knees, but it did. It was the one last flake of snow that caused the avalanche in my life. And it was a mighty avalanche. Everything I knew to be true no longer existed. Everything seemed void of substance. I was disconnected from myself, from God, from my relationships and from my heart. To talk with me, see me or watch me navigate in life would not have revealed the state of my being; I was masking my fragile vulnerability from others and it was exhausting me on all levels. I felt only grief and isolation as I smiled and carried on with the normal schedule and familiarity of life. Time became a series of hours and days and weeks of feeling separate and alone.
Years before, a friend had told me about Source Legacy and suggested I explore it as an option for further understanding of the healing process. As was the pattern in my life, I asked a respected teacher their advice. They had never heard of Source Legacy, and therefore, did not have an opinion one way or the other. I did not pursue the option. Years later, when I was in the throes of the avalanche aftermath, another friend suggested I explore Source Legacy. Just as my Ayurvedic discovery took me years to recognize, so it was with Source Legacy – except this time, at the second suggestion, I realized I had been given the same opportunity, again, and it was most likely not a coincidence.
I made the phone call and began the retrieval of my Soul.
It seems difficult enough to re-claim ones s/Self. Some might even believe that would be the conclusion of the story with a happy ending. At another place in time that might have been enough. But I was given the chance for something more. It was, yet again, a choice to grasp the brass ring or deny myself. At so many stages of my life I had been given opportunities to spread my wings and fly. But there were hidden fears. Resistance was born out of a denial of my own power. This time was different. My body was finally healthy enough to handle the vibration needed to absorb the emotional and spiritual shift. The teachers were all right in front of me. The courage was somewhere deep within me. The time was now.
It was through my work at Source Legacy that I realized the “right combination” always existed. It was within me and had been there all along. I knew this intellectually but this time I was beginning to own it. It takes skilled and compassionate healers to assist the growth defined as claiming oneself. It takes someone seeing what is invisible to others. It takes a thoughtful and respectful approach to guide the steps of assimilating all that is and all that can be. It is not always an easy or comfortable task, but I have learned it is always worth the work. Healing is creating harmony within the matrix of the mind, body and soul and defining the essence of the pure Self. Few are gifted with the true grace of being a healer. It takes patience, wisdom, a sense of humor (!), authentic power, Light, an open and fearless heart, time, focus and energy. My contact with Source Legacy provided such healers and the forum to do the work at hand.
I have been given the rare and exquisite gift of teachers/healers, and I am deeply grateful. I thank these profound and gracious Lightworkers: Eddie Gobb, Dr. Kshirsagar, Dr. Vasant Lad, and Ron Brown Grayson. They are masters of this adventure we call life. They are givers of great bounty and abundance. They are the epitome of what they teach: living from Truth, expanding the heart, standing in authentic power, capturing the present moment with full attention, knowing (not just hoping) there is a better tomorrow, and accepting responsibility for S/self, humanity and the planet.
I started out as a tiny baby with a body trying to communicate the lessons of the soul. The body that was once interpreted as a punisher and enemy was, in fact, filled with the grace of Divine Language. It took pain to get my attention. It manifested physically, emotionally and spiritually. It was the pain that delivered motivation to persistently search for answers. And the answers came more abundantly than I could have ever imagined.
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It is important that I acknowledge another teacher/healer in my life. It was my father. He taught me what love felt like, that it truly existed in absolute pure form, and that everything I ever needed was provided. He gave me abundance in all its exquisite manifestations. He taught me I could have whatever I wanted. To a child that meant one thing. To an adult woman that means something far different; it means I can be myself and that I will be embraced. I can live abundantly and confidently. I am healthy. I have choices that come from fear or love and each has a different set of consequences. It means I get to have relationships with people who celebrate life with all of its dichotomies. It means we are all One. I am no different that anyone else. Everyone can claim their birthright of unadulterated joy and knowing. Everyone can be, do, and have what they dream. It is within each of our life stories.
It was through a broken body and spirit that I found Ayurveda and Source Legacy. As I share reflections on a life that found the right combination and unlocked the fear I am grateful. I am free from suffering and constant pain. When pain of any magnitude revisits I have the tools and resources to release the patterns that seduce constriction. I know when I expand I will find safety and comfort, joy and freedom.
I invite those of you reading these words to breathe, expand, unlock fear, and recognize your own innate wisdom. Truth and love exist. When they are claimed they can never again be tarnished or taken away.
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HOPE PIZA
Hope is a collaborator and co-creator with Source Legacy, a Licensed Massage Therapist, she holds a degree in Universal Sciences, and is a Panchakarma facilitator at the Ayurvedic Institute in Albuquerque, New Mexico.
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DATING TODAY
by Hope Piza
I think I have relationship problems, or at least problems with romantic relationships. I realize things are only a problem if you make them a problem. The problem for me is that I really would like some kind of long-term relationship and the possibility of having a family with the right person. I’ve been pondering this for a while because every time I start dating someone and feel like I am making progress the whole situation crashes and burns. I know it is partly my fault due to the fact that I am stubborn and pig-headed at times. I also have a propensity for liking men who have issues with commitment. Is that a reflection of myself? Maybe that is a small part of it. The very thing I desire is the thing I fear.
As a woman in the world and an energetic being who definitely displays more feminine than male energy, I realize that there is an imbalance between the two. I hate to say that the two are at war with one another because in my heart I feel like “haven’t we had enough?” I will say that I think male and female energies are just not “getting” one another right at this moment. I’ve heard more than one person comment on the fact that the feminine is really evolving while the male energy is just stagnant for most. This is just a generalization because this does not hold true across the board. Trust me; I know. Many of my girlfriends are lunatics (please don’t wonder if you are one of them because it doesn’t matter who is and who isn’t. Plus a lot of you have willingly admitted it, as have I).
I have been asking all my friends about this and the irony is that my guy friends blame the girls and my girlfriends blame the guys. Bottom line: if you want to challenge yourself right now in this world then date!!! Whether you are more masculine or more feminine you will most likely learn a lot about yourself. I often feel crazy and out of sorts when I am dating, and I really would like to blame the men of this world – but I can’t quite go there because I feel sorry for men. Women are becoming so independent that the old ways of relationships no longer apply, and a lot of my male friends tell me they feel lost. They don’t seem to know how to relate to us and that becomes frustrating for my sisters and me. As a result I hear (and, yes, I have said it myself at times) how men suck!!
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My fear around this whole situation is that women will become the dominating force if we are not careful, if we continue with the attitude that men are bad and the reason for our problems. I pray for a time when we all empower ourselves as men and women and respect one another for our differences. I often wonder what would happen if we looked at the masculine within and really took the time to honor that portion of our being. Would it cause a ripple and make it easier for others (especially the masculine) to heal themselves? I’ve really been contemplating this question the past couple of days and it makes sense to me. I know not every single thing is a reflection, but we do create our realities and I just can’t put all the blame on the men I’ve dated for my misfortunes.
It’s interesting to me that most people I know want to have a lasting relationship – or at least a good run with another person. My observation is that fear is the biggest culprit. If we let enough of it sink in then the wall comes, leading to Splitsville, and then we do it all over again. In my opinion, the missing link is the Highest Divinity. At least for me I lose sight of spirituality sometimes. My faith can be very tenuous on a daily basis and that affects all aspects of life, especially in a partnership.
I have been thinking about the difference in male and female energy. Energy flows in through our feminine (left) side and outward through the masculine (right) side. Why is it so hard to have these two in balance? The two energies work like the infinity symbol, constantly making a circuit so that we can create from the Highest Realms. It seems the male energy is hurting and is having a hard time letting that go and letting the energy flow outward so that it can be cleared. The men I have dated or who have been my friend seem to reflect this theory. Most of the men I know have been hurt by relationships and have experienced great pain because of this.
To really let someone in and be vulnerable is not easy and I feel it’s because there has been great disappointment in the past. I have realized this in myself lately and I have realized my own reluctance to commit. This reluctance to commit is not just in relationships with other people but also with myself. I never thought I had that problem, and yet when I realized this it seemed so obvious: I have never lived in one place longer than five years. I have not been very good at communication over distances. There have been few things that I have stuck with for very long. These things are just a few things I have noticed in my life that have clued me in to my lack of commitment.
I am grateful for the awareness I have gained from really taking a look at what is going on with my fear of commitment. I know I have work to do, but I seem to be much more content with myself these days. I have gone through whole days without even thinking about being in a relationship. I used to think about this subject daily. I have more energy to put toward other things and I feel like something inside of me is shifting. I am responsible for my own happiness and, having had this opportunity to really look at what is going on, my awareness of this fact has expanded.
© 2008 by Hope Piza
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